[Iryiris]

I was told not to create another post due to i under advertising mode. So i created another nick for this section instead. I repost what i had did in early morning again. Hopefully this way it won't delete again.

14th Dec 2017 (Thurs)
3:06am

It 1 of those sleepless nights again wit mind full of thoughts. I been going through a super low peak period currently that it affects me alot. I really dunno where to write my thoughts so i start it over here, just like how i used to do bk then.

To fill up a little abt me, I'm a local independent FL. Somewhere in May, i made a comeback. Everything seems smooth & good for abt 2 wks til someone or rather people started to cyber attack me. They started off by zapping my regulars, stating all sorts of nonsense about me. I dunno who is he/her/they. Might be competitors. Somehow, it a bit affected my business. Then i was away & let the matter rest & i bk again to work. Things picked up again. Everything going smoothly & til recently it started again. 1 of this guys out of his curiosity, he asked that red alert qns. The qns was that's this saga saying I'm not a looker, he was wondering is this true. When i saw this, i was actually in hospital. My dad was admitted due to his non stop diarrhoea & he couldn't pee. Initially i choose to ignore that qns. But things just went outburst when i reached home. I had some argument wit my dad due to his prescription of medicines. My dad seemed to hv doubts in my command of English & i really felt so sucky. It was like he gave me the vibe he didn't trust me & doubt my ability. That's where i was snapped. I saw that qns again & i ended up replied bk in not a very good way. Maybe i really made a mistake by doing that. At that pt of the time i was hurt, worried, crying, exhausted, mixture of feelings. I was doing my housework at that time & it was like almost 5am. Later part of it of cuz that's some debates going on but it was cooled off after that. Due to this return of the saga thingy, i knew it will affect my work again. But this time, it not a good time to be affected with my dad condition & so on. Of cuz all sorts of concerns flown in & particular 1 even arranged appt with me & we supposed to meet yesterday. But i never expected, someone who offered helping hand turned up to be a prank. I even booked room already & i really felt so shattered. I had no choice but to postpone the incall to next wk.