[Zenranger]

Good Afternoon All,

I am sorry for not looking at the messages while I was awaiting my result to be out as this would drive me insane and therefore I decided to just not use my computer during such a difficult period. The result was out yesterday and unfortunately, the paper did show I had been exposed to HSV1 being positive and tested negative for HSV2 from DSC Clinic. HIV 4TH Gen result turned out negative and other STDs and urine test results also turned out negative, also I was advised to take a Hepatitis B injection for my first shot which was recommended by my doctor, therefore, I had my first shot yesterday.

Currently, I feel disappointed and depressed however, I had to be brave enough to face the consequences as it was my decision to book the illegal fl and fuck her twice even wearing a condom on. Therefore I cannot blame anyone just myself for the rash act. The surprising fact was I told the doctor I had not been having sex for many months and not even kissing anyone since my partner was in overseas, my doctor told me even if you wear a condom you still can get hsv1 from vaginal sex and oral sex. You do not have to kiss someone to get HSV1. The observation I notice was during 20/12/2019 while I was tested, there were no signs of symptoms, but during the new year last year on the last day, the next day I woke up that is where I notice a small sore on my bottom lip. After a few days, while eating, the scab pus of the sore came out by itself probably the food I ate accidentally scratch it off. Even yesterday when I show my doctor the condition of my penis, its still the same as before, told me this is not genital herpes and he can confirm with me I did not have hsv2. Till now i just had to accept the fact it could be receiving the cap bj or cap fj that could be the cause that I was exposed to the HSV1 virus.

Here are a few questions that I hope to receive some valuable advice from experienced users that are suffering from STDs or HSVs too.

1. if my blood test IGG came back positive for HSV1, should I get re-tested again
or normally such result the accuracy was correct, I heard from some, testing
for herpes, the result might not be accurate especially for a blood test.
Therefore I am unsure should I wait till 6 months and get tested again or just
accept the current result on the report?

2. Now that I had HSV1, in the future can I still kiss my partner or others even
my outbreak had gone away as I spoke to the health adviser, she told me to
avoid kissing at all times as I was already being exposed to HSV1 Virus
unless I plan to spread the virus willingly to anyone which would not be my
intention to do so?

3. Since I had hsv1 currently, does that meant in future I need to have sex with
my partner only by wearing a condom to prevent her from getting the virus
from me or I can still have vaginal sex if there was no outbreak from me. My
partner her company paid for her health check-up, so her result had always
came back negative as what she shared with me every year when I ask her
casually although she does not wish to talk about it openly since it is such a
sensitive topic.

4. Does anyone after realizing having HSV1 or 2 still go on their habits visiting
illegal FL to fuck or had completely retired forever? I am addicted to such
adventure but would like to learn from others should I just quit completely or I
can still continue my addiction making an appointment to book FL to fuck and
wear a condom-like I always did?

5. With myself having HSV1 currently if I continue this route to fuck illegal fl in
the future with condom on, will my chances of catching HIV high and other
STDS since I am an HSV carrier now?

6. After receiving my result, before I sleep I decided to do a masturbation test as
I did not PCC for about 3 weeks and I was shocked after ejaculation while
releasing my semen, I notice the hole of my penis head there was a little
dark blood coming out of it, should I be concerned or should i see a doctor
again, from what I read from the net, it says for someone with HSV, this
could be a symptoms or either not masturbating for so long and suddenly
shoot all out, sometime blood can occur as it had being store too long inside.
Is this true, meanwhile I am going to stop masturbating for a week and see
how it goes, hopefully, the next time I PCC it will not have blood, otherwise
I need to go see doctor again.

My partner would be coming back 2 weeks from now to celebrate CNY, I had decided to let her know after CNY ends as I don't wish to dampen her spirit, I am not sure would she leave me after telling her however I am prepared for the worst since I had already committed the act being unfaithful to her out of my stupidity. I had been controlling my urge for sex for many months, all I do was PCC and I could not understand how just one good encounter booking an Illegal FL from the website could give me this HSV1 Virus, maybe it could be a punishment God is giving me.

If experience bros from here advised me to quit then probably I should stop visiting FL forever.

Not having sex for so long had really driven me crazy and stressful and this is the result I am paying for the mistake I had committed out of feeling lust and horny.

Thank you for reading and I hope to receive some good advice from experienced users here that also had gone through the same fate being an HSV carrier too.

Regards

Zen