Jeez dude, you sound so insecure. Get a grip on yourself. Just go for the goddamn test and be done with it. If it's negative, you have a weight off your shoulders and a new lease of life.
If its positive, well, you need treatment asap or you will expire very quickly. Either case, you have to get tested. So just do it.
I was once in your shoes, and I was scared. But I convinced myself that I needed to know, even more so if it might be positive since early detection and treatment can prolong your life. Late detection just means an early death. It's no different from going for tests for cancers, liver problems, and many other chronic-life-threatening diseases.
Once I realized that, I went for the test pronto at AFA. And it turned out negative, so all my anxieties were for nothing. I celebrated by crossing the road to Petain and having a bonk.
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Originally Posted by stupiderthanu
"Symptoms are unreliable", "You can't diagnose it from symptoms", "IMHO, your symptoms do not sound like they are caused by HIV".
I do not doubt the sincerity of these posts, and I know that the intentions behind these replies are noble, pure and in the purpose of wanting to calm me down, and mentally prepare me for HIV testing.
But, I'm still afraid... I really feel like I'm on the plank, forced off the ship, with a huge needle with the words HIV Testing on it.
I'm trying to mentally prepare myself to go for the test, but its still very very hard. As of now, 'symptoms' are only left with night sweats, which I also do not know the definition, to be sure of the symptom. I mean yeah, I've been noticing more sweat in my neck, head and shoulder areas, but not so for the rest of my body. Is it considered night sweats? I don't know. I don't seem to know anything anymore.
Loose stools no more, though now I seem to battle constipation. Everyday something new pops up. Twitching, that's still there. I don't know. I don't know anymore.
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