Part 2: Janet
Weeks n months passes, i tried to move on after mabel have left , things seems like normal , i continued my work, my parents gave me tons on concerns, i tried to look fine infront of them, i tried , but day in day out i m like a walking zombie , i tried to end my life but i remembered mabel tell me to live for her, till now when i met with down turns in life, i still rmb her last words , her last words kept me moving till date..
One person that tried to talk me out is my manager call janet(J), J was 29, 12yrs older than me, everyday after work she would drink with me, my other collegues sometimes would stay with us to drink at the ktv n there were days where both of us drink alone, days after days i becaming better n better but deep down i had a broken heart.
There was one night when only both of us drinking n J began talking abt some stuff.
J: Di,(she calls me di n i calls her jie,she's like a big sis to me even till now) so ur 'O's results is out, getting into poly or jc ?
H88: i dunno, may just rot till ns , dont feel like studying anymore, i try to look fine, but actually i am not.
J: u siao ah ! U need to move on, one day u will get a job, get to know someone else that will u will marry to, start a family n stuffs! Mabel also want u to move on , live a gd life for her.
H88: Aiya , i dunno la, u dont understands how i feels!
J: yes, i might not fully understands how u feels but in life there r many things u can do. There r many things more impt
J just keep tell me the same things, but after a while i got a bit lost control due to her naggings
H88: AIYA , U ALL KNOW HOW TO SAY ONLY ! U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I FEELS LA ! FUCK U !
J: Hey! What Fuck me!? I GIVE U FUCK GUESS U ALSO DUNNO HOW TO . U KNOW HOW TO MAKE A GAL CUM A NOT !
H88: CUM WAD CUM, CUM UR CB LA!
I turn n storm off from workplace n took a cab home ..
Depsites after that incident , J words did dawn on me , i continue working at e ktv, but we did not talk, the drinking n smoking aft work didnt stop, but me n J nv spoke, however her words made me think, i have to plan for my future , i chose to go to poly , however i chose to enrol for poly a yr ltr, my parents were nt able to understand me but i explain to them that i want to work n get myself b on track before getting b to study.. I just needed time ...
During that period of time i continue working at e ktv, J n i still seldom talk, it was only untill a mth ltr during the aft work drinking that we started talking . We started drinking in group but all of my collegues left one by one, leaving me n J behind. After all left I started to spoke .
H88: Jie, that day sry . I was drunk.
J:silence * but eyes looking at me.
I began telling her my plans on going b poly n stuffs, after sometime, digesting what i said J spoke.
J: well, at least u r planning. I am happy for u !
We began talking n joking again . Out of no where i bought b e topic on our last quarreling session.
H88: jie, that day u say cum, gals can really cum meh ?
J: Omg ! U dunno ah ? U last time fuck ur ex she nv cum ah ? * she was careful not to mention Mabel's name
H88: no leh , just v wet lo. But i watch porn i saw the gal like peeing after the guy lick n finger her.
J: haha, u noob la, know how to fuck only ! Want jie jie teach u is it ? But i think u dont dare la !
H88: who says so ? U dare to teach i dare to learn !
Sensing i blurted out something too fast. There was an awkward slience between us . It was untill a min ltr that J spoke :
Tbc..